Something really good is about to happen.

As rough as the past month+ has been...

Maybe you need to hear this too. Whoever is reading this.

The collective shadow work we have been going through is not for the weak. It’s not.

I’ve been brought face to face with my own unhealthy habits and self-talk. I’ve held a funeral for my past self. I’ve lost, and lost, and lost.

It has been such a profound experience. And if you’ve been following along, you know I’m a big believer in healing out loud. I’m not on here to be exemplary. Healing is messy. Healing requires dipping into our shadow aspects and allowing them to be brought to light.

I’m grateful if you’re still here honoring my being and becoming. I’ve had to remove certain people so I can proceed with authentic appreciation. I don’t appreciate people who don’t appreciate me. But that doesn’t mean I have no appreciation at all. I’m learning where the warmth of my gratitude is welcome and directing it there.

Without sharing the astrological equivalents of my bank and social security numbers, what I’ve been learning from my birth chart is that I have a tendency to attribute willpower and action to other people. In other words, I tend to give my power away.

It’s a pattern that’s created a lot of resentment within me. Rather than setting boundaries so I can channel my energy in the direction I’m going, it’s caused me to lash out at people who I’m not aligned with in the first place—a lose-lose situation if I’ve ever seen one.

I know how to free myself. I know how to be a rebel. What I’m working on is when it’s appropriate to be a rebel. Appropriate not in the sense of socially acceptable, but appropriate as in prudent. Some situations merit walking away silently; rebellion can be a waste of time and energy.

And if it’s one thing I’m learning this year, my time and energy are valuable.

I used to be such a stoner, frankly. I would just smoke the day away. And vaping on top of it. It was such a waste of time. I was coping with so much pain I couldn’t fathom facing sober.

But something snapped late last year. I quit smoking and vaping. It’s been so good for me. I’m not 100% sober, I’ll still drink or take an edible from time to time. But I’m smoke free. It was one of my biggest vices.

I’m still learning how to live a life that honors the value of my time and energy. It’s a lot of trial and error. My sleep schedule and self-care routines have been deeply disrupted with becoming homeless. I feel like if I had those on lock, I could be so much more productive. But at the same time, productive isn’t the main goal. Rest is valuable. The deepest spiritual work I’ve done lately has been in my dream space. My dreams speak to me so deeply these days.

I wake knowing things are not always as they seem. I wake knowing there are shifts occurring in my life that surpass my ego’s framework for reading reality. I wake knowing I am being guided by forces that extend beyond my conscious understanding. I wake knowing I am being protected (and informed, when necessary).

I wake knowing, despite my physical circumstances, I am being brought deeper into my spiritual experience through every night.

I wake knowing something really good is about to happen.

My life—and your life too, if you resonate with this—is about to change drastically for the better. I am so grateful for this knowledge, and I am so grateful I will be walking into this chapter knowing I can’t take everyone with me. Some people are getting left behind. This is my winning season, not theirs. And that was their choice, for the record.

If you feel like you’ve been sinking, if you’ve been living life beneath the surface, this is for you. We have the tools, you and I. We know how to navigate the depths. It’s time for us to learn how to navigate the surface. It’s time for us to enjoy some sunlight. Oxygen. Warmth.

I’m ready, are you? <3

Love,
MOXIE MAVERICK