Everyone wants clarity, no one wants to be empty
But that's what the word means.
I wanted clarity for years. To the point I did witchcraft asking the universe to “dis-illusion” me.
I am disillusioned.
And I feel empty.
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The people of South Sudan are experiencing one of the greatest humanitarian crises of our time. Being queer is criminalized here, and LGBTQI+ individuals are in constant danger due to state violence, religious persecution, and societal hate.
Sophie, a trans refugee living in Gorom Refugee Camp, asked me to share her recent interview to spread awareness.
I remember taking my first cleansing bath around this time last year, when I was in my hometown and dealing with some very serious spiritual and mental health struggles. I wasn’t prepared for how clear the bath would leave me feeling. Although the effects wore off eventually, that experience temporarily stripped me of both positive and negative feelings. It left me feeling incredibly neutral. It was unsettling how empty I felt, but there was no doubt in my mind that the cleansing had worked.
What many of us don’t understand about spiritual cleansing is that it is a process of emptying out. It’s purging.
This solar eclipse in Aquarius, which occurred last Tuesday, 2/17 (the astrological new year), was a profound cleansing moment. Solar eclipses happen on new moons, which carry the energy of letting go, surrender, and emptiness.
Considering the lunar eclipse coming up on 3/3, which is a full moon and therefore the culmination of the lunar cycle started on the solar eclipse, it’s probably too soon to speak too deeply of what this cycle is accomplishing.
What I can say for myself, however, is how drastic of a shift I have felt in my energy, leaving the year of the snake and entering the year of the fire horse.
2025 was full of illusion. Not just for the sake of fuckery, but for the sake of exposure. Last year exposed where we are still living in illusion. This solar eclipse asked us to release the illusion so we can move forward. Rather, so we are not destabilized when the fire horse moves us forward whether we like it or not.
The enemy of clarity is distraction and distortion. If our attention (consciousness) can be likened to a camera lens, spiritual cleansing is the act of cleaning the lens and ensuring the aperture is not obstructed.
The thing is, we get addicted to distortion. For me, a major reckoning with this eclipse has been how I’ve allowed my identity to be inverted into my phone screen. It’s like my phone screen became a portal into a mirror dimension, and I fell in. A black hole of identity. I found myself looking out of my own screen, longing for reality on the other side.
I’m stepping out. Our technology is unfortunately intentionally designed to do this. It’s a way we are stripped of power, and I do not consent. My attention is one of my most valuable and limited resources, and I’m going on a journey to reclaim it.
I can’t promise I’ll be posting regularly. Going forward, my social media and online presence serves me—not the other way around. If I have something to say here, I’ll say it. Otherwise, I’m aiming to be more offline this year. The most exciting parts of life aren’t happening on a screen.
Love,
MOXIE MAVERICK
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